“It’s an addiction if you find yourself continually bashing yourself for past mistakes and /or failures. It is this constant rumination that puts us in the negative spiral which leads to more isolation, withdrawal and psychic pain. The familiar feeling of sadness and the continual inner hollowness that make our life so miserable becomes our security.”
But, where do we go from here? I myself got caught up in the spiraling downward descent into the darkness and hell of depression. I felt trapped and helpless.
My spiraling upward came when I felt the hope in the stories of those like myself, who no longer felt hopeless and helpless. I became proactive in my own recovery and survival. Some had already attempted to commit suicide. Once I discovered others just like myself, I was fascinated by the fact that others were really telling my story as well. There were differences in some of the details, but basically their stories rang true with my own. It was from that moment on that I was hooked.
Was the group my own Higher Power? Who was the God that was greater than myself? How did I contact this Power? It was listening to others that I came to believe that there is someone, somebody that I could believe in, to free me from my prison of depression.
It was just like the Wright Brothers at Kitty Hawk, North Carolina who believed that humans could fly. They had their ups and downs, (no pun intended) but their faith in what they were doing got them in the air and off the ground.
The way to get up and get moving toward recovery is to get moving and start working the Steps, one by one. You too will begin to live in hope one day at a time. You will now have a flight plan that will take you where you want to go.
The second Step of the Twelve Steps promotes the belief that we “came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
Copyright(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd ed. ,Depressed Anonymous Publications, Louisville. KY. Page 40.
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“The Twelve Steps work for those who work the program and who try to live one day at a time. Many times we have been so scared of being rejected that we have withdrawn deeper into the anguish of our shame and hurt. We need to air our hurts, our shame, and let others hear our story. There is something healing about hearing ourselves speak to others about our own journey in life and the many emotional potholes that we have fallen into from time to time. We have felt our lives were jinxed. But now we can begin to feel hopeful when other members of the group shake their heads in knowing approval of what we are saying when we tell our story. Most have been where we have been where and we are now. And the more we make an effort to come to meetings regularly, the more we will find members of the group telling us how they are seeing a change in the way we act, talk, and look. We will accept the group’s comments as being true and honestly expressed. These people speak our language and they all have been wher e we are now. You gradually begin to see yourself as healer instead of victim the more you work this program and get excited about the possibility of helping others. When you start reaching out to others in the group, it is at this point that you are carrying the message of hope to others. You have a future with Depressed Anonymous. ”
SOURCE: Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Page 105.
“I am going to handle what has taken a lifetime to develop one day at a time.
“When we saw others solve their problems by a simple reliance upon the Spirit of the Universe, we had to stop doubting the power of God. Our ideas did not work. But the God idea did.” (1)
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I always doubted the power of God until I started to see and read about other people working their Twelve Step program and getting on to meetings. I also believe that there is surely hope for me as I hear about other depressed persons who are in the fellowship with each other and have a genuine desire to stop sadding themselves. This is all that is needed, a desire to stop sadding oneself. I can feel a change inside of me as I begin to rely more on this God who loves me and cares how I feel. This program of hope works if you work the program.
This is the word that gives hope. It is a simple reliance, day by day, hour by hour, that I will find the serenity, the simplicity of a life lived without the anxiety, hollowness, jitteriness of my depression. It is in my admission of such that begins me on the road to recovery and hope.
We trust in our God. We rely on you as we turn as often as we can to be present in your Presence. We want to pray unceasingly and learn from you how to love ourselves.
SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of Twelve Step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Page 150. July 27.