I will make a daily inventory of all my strengths.

 

BELIEVING IS SEEING:   15  WAYS TO LEAVE THE PRISON OF DEPRESSION.  # Eleven.

 

I will make a daily inventory of all my positive strengths. I tended to magnify the worst in everything in my life and make mountains out of molehills. I will focus on my stars and not my scars.

 

“One of the  problems of being depressed is that every circumstance and situation is filled with potential hurt and disappointment. The depressed  person has a tendency to think in patterns of despair, hurt, and disappointment. It appears to be a proven fact that  the more a person keeps their fears and anxious  thoughts  to themselves, this can cause the mountain to grow larger. But by sharing these  fears  and thoughts with  others, either by writing them out, as in a daily journal, or group discussion (like on SKYPE and ZOOM) we soon discover that our fears are not as big as we thought. The expression of fear  many times decreased  the size of their fear.  Now that we are accepting ourselves we can begin to see that we possess the  strength and persistence to tackle whatever obstacle lies ahead.

One of the features that stands out in our lives when depressed  is  we see everything in dark colors. Nothing looks  hopeful. There does not appear to be a light at the end of the tunnel – except that it might be an oncoming freight train. We feel that we do not have a friend in  the world. We feel that we’ll never feel good again. The list goes on and on.

What may be of some help is to take out pen and pencil and begin writing down your good points that you feel are your strengths. We have already done this,  but it still remains an excellent exercise no matter how often you do it.

What do you remember as strengths before being aware  that you are depressed?  Going to  Depressed Anonymous meetings has the potential to restore your sense of proportion about  your strong points. At the meetings your friends in the fellowship will  begin to tell  you are showing improvement the more you are participating in  the meetings. To listen to those who themselves are working the program and who share their lives week after week, you begin to realize that you too can begin to feel differently. Today can be a new start and  yes, you do have it within yourself to be that person who is reversing old negative patterns of thinking and replacing them  with thoughts of hope and optimism.   You now believe that there is hope for yourself.  Right  now your strength seems to be that of maintaining a habitual  way of thinking thoughts of hope.  By the fact that you are reading this, takes the strength to want to feel good and continue to maintain a positive recovery. Begin now and reflect on your strengths. Believe that you  have a way to maintain a personal persistence and desire to continue with gratitude for this new feeling of hope.”

NOTE: Take your pen and/or  pencil and begin writing your thoughts down in response to the questions posed in the DEPRESSED ANONYMOUS WORKBOOK.  Depressed Anonymous Publications.

RESOURCES:

Copyright(c)  Believing is seeing: 15 ways to leave the prison of depression. (2020) Hugh Smith. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY. Pages 57-59.

Copyright(c) The Depressed Anonymous Workbook. (2002) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY.

Copyright(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY.

These basic books of the  Depressed Anonymous Fellowship can be ordered online.

See: www.depressed anon.con.

LITERATURE AVAILABLE.

To receive  a mailing of Depressed Anonymous literature, send a Self addressed stamped envelope to : DAP, Box 465 , Pewee Valley, Kentucky. 40056. 

The material can be used as “handouts”  at your local Depressed Anonymous meetings.

 

 

I believe that misery is an option.

“If surrender of our wills to the ‘care of God’ is of the essence of the spiritual life, for anyone who truly desires to free themselves from a chronic and compulsive behavior such as depression, then the Twelve Steps can be your stepping stones to the path of a hope filled life.”

CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT

I used to hear the word “surrender” as it made me feel like I was in the hands and under the total domination of another.  It was like I had no control whatsoever as to what I was to do or what I was to be. I was blind to the fact that in reality I had already surrendered my life to my sadness so that whenever I wanted to hide, or isolate myself, I just saddened myself and  so didn’t have to feel anything. I am surrendering to the God of my understanding;  slowly my life is filling with light and hope and this is what I really want for myself. I am finding that the ‘care of God’ is much better than anything I could ever  wished for.  My life is one filled with hope rather than being hopeless.

The spiritual life for me is filled with the excitement of knowing that  this God of mine, as I understand him, is  today wanting to lead me further into the light of his healing power. My spiritual life is filled  now with a close and personal relationship with a God who loves and guides me on a minute-to-minute basis.

MEDITATION

We are going to get as close to God today as we choose to get.

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SOURCE:  Copyright (c) Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 Step fellowship groups.  Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Pages 257-258. December 29.

 

 

 

 

TODAY IS ALL I HAVE.

AFFIRMATION

I can live each moment as it comes. I can live only in today. Today is all I have.

“Try to work out which is your habitual response to change which you see as dangerous, so that as you dare to explore you don’t suddenly find yourself running away to the safety of old ways, or resisting the new ideas with old prejudices.( 3)

CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT

I find that when I am depressed I find all the comfort in the predictable and the familiar.  Right now, I am in battle for my life and I am going to stay and work things out. My feelings are agitated and make me feel very uncomfortable, but I know that it is only by feeling them and accepting them (not run away) that I will, and can in time, begin to taste the freedom of a new me beginning to be born.  I believe that by desiring change, this desire will produce a greater motivation in my self to think and feel differently.

This is an important concept when I am depressed. I desire the safety of the familiar and the predictable.

MEDITATION

God, help me to live in the peace and the serenity  of the present moment. And let us be aware of the moment when we begin to depress ourselves.  Alert us to the moment that we can CHOOSE to turn our minds to something more constructive.

SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for down days(c). (March 17).