I deserve to be free of my sadness.
“Now that small voice, that little part of you that wants to have light and some hope, is getting up the courage to seek more for itself.”
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I can no longer turn back and live in my old self. I am like the butterfly gradually becoming winged and ready to fly as soon as it throws off its old body, the body of the caterpillar. My metamorphosis is in process and nothing is going to turn me back to the way my life had been. I want now for my life to continue to get better as I notice the more I work on myself and trust in my Higher Power, the more I am ready to live with courage and hope. I am beginning to like the taste of living life and look forward to each new day as it comes. I want my wings!
Courage is to have heart and to believe that all things can work out if I just put my belief into gear and work as if it depended on myself and pray as if it all depended on God.
God, we hear you speaking to us to grow and to trust. We all count the ways that you have cleared the obstacles from our path so that our down days are less than before and we have now more good days than before.
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SOURCES: (c) Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY. April 2. Page 55.
(c)Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY.
(c) Believing is Seeing: 15 ways to leave the prison of depression. (2015) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY.
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“It’s an addiction if you find yourself continually bashing yourself for past mistakes and /or failures. It is this constant rumination that puts us in the negative spiral which leads to more isolation, withdrawal and psychic pain. The familiar feeling of sadness and the continual inner hollowness that make our life so miserable becomes our security.”
But, where do we go from here? I myself got caught up in the spiraling downward descent into the darkness and hell of depression. I felt trapped and helpless.
My spiraling upward came when I felt the hope in the stories of those like myself, who no longer felt hopeless and helpless. I became proactive in my own recovery and survival. Some had already attempted to commit suicide. Once I discovered others just like myself, I was fascinated by the fact that others were really telling my story as well. There were differences in some of the details, but basically their stories rang true with my own. It was from that moment on that I was hooked.
Was the group my own Higher Power? Who was the God that was greater than myself? How did I contact this Power? It was listening to others that I came to believe that there is someone, somebody that I could believe in, to free me from my prison of depression.
It was just like the Wright Brothers at Kitty Hawk, North Carolina who believed that humans could fly. They had their ups and downs, (no pun intended) but their faith in what they were doing got them in the air and off the ground.
The way to get up and get moving toward recovery is to get moving and start working the Steps, one by one. You too will begin to live in hope one day at a time. You will now have a flight plan that will take you where you want to go.
The second Step of the Twelve Steps promotes the belief that we “came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
Copyright(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd ed. ,Depressed Anonymous Publications, Louisville. KY. Page 40.
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“Our whole outlook and attitude upon life changes.” One of the Promises of Depressed Anonymous.
“To really believe, possibly for the first time in one’s life that I can free myself from the prison of depression and begin to feel better. I know that I need to be proactive in my efforts at self-recovery. But what causes our outlook and attitude to change?
I have to begin to believe that hope and healing is possible. Once we have gone through some painful inner changes, such as dealing with our character defects and our isolating tendencies we se there is a way out. We have to have a positive attitude that will move and motivate us to want to go and get to the next step. Watching someone actually take these steps week after week and watch the feeling of wellness rise up in them can promote a belief that with work and time, their lives do improve. Soon we see that a sense of purpose begins to manifests itself the more time and work we put into our person recovery.
A door opens ever slightly and there appears a potential route to freedom. A way out! I do know that when my hope and faith in recovery rises, my symptoms of depression go down. ”
SOURCE: Copyright(c) I’ll do it when I feel better. 2013. Smith, Hugh. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, Kentucky. P. 46.
PROMISE # 7 OF DEPRESSED ANONYMOUS
“As we start our program of recovery we notice that there are persons in the group who are less well off than are we.”
” Newcomers also remind us of ourselves when we stepped into the group for the first time. They struggle to keep back tears and hurt as they speak, possibly for the first time, trusting that they are with people who have been where they are. This is what provides the beginning of hope and healing. People in the group speak their language of hope and possibility. They hear how recovery is possible. They want those tools to use in their own recovery.
… We need to air our hurts, our shame, and let others hear our story. (3)
I personally believe that once I have made the first step, and admitted my powerlessness, I set in motion a force, a loving force of the creator in my personal life. In time I am filled with energy and find that this power can change me and restore my life with purpose and meaning. It can prepare me to meet those who are willing to risk leaving the prison of their depression. By my own interest in getting in touch with the Higher Power and getting its direction to “do the next right thing” I find that my own life is gradually becoming more filled with purpose and energy.”
SOURCE: I’LL DO IT WHEN I FEEL BETTER. (2013) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Pages 43-44.