I am taking full responsibility for myself and I am making a commitment to my own health and healing.
“Now that we have learned that we have to take care of ourselves and our recovery that we begin to look at the way we think and feel. Even though we don’t want to blame ourselves for having been depressed most of our lives, we know now that we are responsible for finding a way out of this depression. We can’t blame it on our genes, hormones or a chemical imbalance.
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I am aware for the first time since I have been working my program that my thinking is cyclical in that my negative thoughts constantly keep going around and around in circles. I have found that I need to stop the negative self-destructive thinking that has dogged me most of my life. I am able to break the cycle of hurt and my own self-inflicted pain and come to my senses. I do have some good things going for me and I plan to use these good character traits as building blocks for a future filled with hope.
I am learning to take good care of myself. I am more interested in my own self-care than I am of what others around me want or need. I am not being selfish as much as I am being concerned about my own growth and development. In the Third Step we declare that “we made a decision to turn our wills and our minds over to the care of God as we understand God. To be in the care of someone means that they are concerned about us and are burdened with a concern for us.
“Restore our fortunes, O God, like the torrents in the southern desert that those that sow in tears shall reap rejoicing. Although they go forth weeping, carrying the seed to be sown, they shall come back rejoicing, carrying their sheaves. ” Psalm 126.
SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of Twelve Step fellowships. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.