(Aware)I find comfort in my anxiety in that I am too afraid to do anything in my own behalf. I am conscious that my anxiety about yesterday with its pain, hurt and repressed anger consumes my life today, while the anxiety and “what ifs” of tomorrow with its’ anxiety and fears about what might happen, continue to overwhelm me. I am also conscious that my beginning to loosen my “death grip” of living in my own will and now letting God move in my life that my anxiety may possibly lessen.
(Motivating) I am reading the Steps everyday and beginning to see that there is hope for me if I can live in the present and jump out of yesterday and stay out of tomorrow. The more I learn how my fears, anxieties are keeping me holed up in my enlarged ego the less possible is it for me to let the Higher Power direct my course. I am developing my faith and learning to let go today.
(Doing) I have already admitted I’m depressed and that my life is out of control because of it. Secondly, I came to believe that there is a power greater than myself that is going to restore me to sanity. I have followed Step Three as suggested and have turned my life and my will over to the care of God as I understand him. I have also learned not to run from my fear but stay and feel it. What I resist persists and gets stronger.
Maintaining. My depression and its anxiety lessens the more that I speak at DA meetings and share with members of the group what my fears are. My progress is one day at a time. I am going to make a daily inventory and continually ask God to remove all my shortcoming.
The Depressed Anonymous Workbook(2002) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY. Page 43/Step Four.