“Sometimes we become depressed…While the surface causes were a part of the picture, they trigger events that precipitated depression-the underlying causes, I am satisfied, ran much deeper.”
“Intellectually, I could accept my situation. Emotionally I could not.”
“To these problems, there are certainly no pat answers. But, part of the answer surely lies in the constant effort to practice all of the Twelve Steps.” Twelve and Twelve.
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I understand that my memory is filled with certain concrete scenarios, assuming intellectual, graphic and emotional content. They continue to be stimulated by events in our adult life. Because of my childhood rehearsal of those feelings of being abandoned, I seem to feel them even more strongly now. These childhood occasions are presently triggered by my present, stressful situations.
I have practiced sadding myself most of my life. My long term memory bank is filled with stories and graphic pictures of those shameful; situations, as perceived at least by myself and in which I continually rehearse how bad, evil and unacceptable I am to myself and to others.
God, our hope is in you as we go about our work, our life today. We trust that even though we may have a hard time trusting you to be our friend, we do trust that you will instruct us on how to gradually take mastery over our life and get involved in our life. (See Step # 3).
RESOURCE: COPYRIGHT (C) HIGHER THOUGHTS FOR DOWN DAYS: 365 DAILY THOUGHTS AND MEDITATIONS FOR MEMBERS OF 12 STEP FELLOWSHIP GROUPS. Depressed Anonymous Publications.Louisville.
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