What an oppression
And how can this be explained?
My pills are to my rescue
My basic needs are fully met
One is convinced that I am in paradise
A woman, married happily with wonderful parents,
children, lovely family, and all.
But what a waste of time!
I hear! Why aren’t you happy?
You are more fortunate than others!
What are you missing? I’m told!
What am I missing, really w=hat?
Since what I need is very little
Just love and peace for all of us.
It’s tortuous to witness pain
and around people’s suffering
It does not help me, knowing that
others are less fortunate than I’m.
One might think that I am just lazy.
And difficulty getting off my bed —
is simply crazy…
Why do I feel so miserable, helpless?
Depression, depression —
What my oppression?
I can’t bypass the homeless
and poor, like many others do
on streets each day.
I’m told to close my eyes and ignore.
I am scared by vehicles sirens,
by bitter odors, children screaming,
by peoples fighting, their rudeness.
How do I support that pain?
I want to help myself feel happiness again.
God knows, I ‘m desperately trying to play
the game of happiness, I can’t own.
A temporary relief is achieved
A sip of freedom so sweet, but
not for long, it quickly leaves.
The witch-depressions’s back again
to haunt me more, to torture me again.
“Be brave, collect yourself”
I hear others.
But that’s so hard for them to get.
That happiness cannot be forced.
That only unable to eat and
sleep when sadness suffocates one’s soul…
What an oppression.'”
Submitted by Irene S., a member of the Depressed Anonymous International Fellowship