More than 30 years ago I felt that I was a broken human being. We all have heard the old saying that “what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger.” Looking back over the time I spent dealing with the darkness within, I now can see my recovery time did make me stronger. That recovery forced me to use tools that I had never realized existed and fit for what I needed to raise myself up. These tools gave me strength for survival. The saying was true: move the body and the mind will follow. Instead of my mind and life spiraling further down into the pit of hopelessness I began spiraling upward with hope. In the beginning of my descent into nothingness I believed that the inner war that was going on in my body was going to kill me. I did believe that I was coming apart, unglued and a danger to myself. I was like a nomad in a wasteland where all the guideposts for directions had disappeared. My life had lost all meaning. My mind resisted thinking about hope and the future. I felt that I was in a state of limbo–no moving forward–only backward and down. My personal pain and anxiety kept me tied down in my own desperation.
Many have found my own story to be a positive statement in which almost on a daily basis I am able to share some of my thoughts about this journey which I am on and which you too can be on. Our own story of recovery is really a tool that others can put to use for their own lives,
My depression experience has provided me with a life purpose and given me meaning which I never dreamt would be my own recovery gift for others “still suffering” to use for their own recovery; the repair of their own personal brokenness. My own life and the Twelve Steps has provided a key which helped me unlock the prison of my depression. The Steps provide ample guidance and direction for those of us who continue the spiral upward, living out in our own lives the hope and purpose which have been promised to those of us who desire a life after depression.
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