I have hope that I can accept myself today and just let fly all the old messages from the old tapes of childhood.
“You desperately wanted people to love you, but you became wary of giving your love to others. You reasoned that the less you loved another person the less it would hurt when the inevitable rejection came.” Dorothy Rowe
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I have been holed up for so long in my own little world of feeling hurt and rejection that to attempt to love someone else like the greatest challenge of my life. I desire so badly to be loved by someone else that this lack of another’s love makes my isolation from others so hurtful.
After having witnessed the miracle of the group in DA, where depressed persons come together with their feelings of being hurt and rejected, I find that other’s love and nurture challenge me to hope once again,. I can share with the group the fact that I haven’t measured up, that I am angry and that I just want to lay down and die.
I am open enough now to let the light of love from others , who like myself, realize that I am not alone and that I am beginning to feel better already now that I no longer need to be perfect.
This means to be willing to affiliate and give of myself for someone else’s good. In the program I am starting to love-myself.
We are going to make a mental decision right now to let God, as we understand God, guide us and instruct us on how best to love ourselves .”
Source: Copyright(c) Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. March 3rd. Page 47.