“The idea that we have to be responsible for ourselves and that the ways of the world are neither good nor just is too terrifying for you to contemplate. You cannot tolerate such uncertainty. You do not trust yourself, so how can you take responsibility for yourself?”
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I don’t like facing the fact that ultimately I am the one responsible for myself, no one else. It appears to me that I have to take care of myself, depend on my Higher Power for direction, and go from there. My Higher Power isn’t going to do it all. I know that I have to do all that I can to restore my life and my feelings. God is the rudder to my boat and I have to put my oars into the water if I am going to get moving in the right direction.
I am attempting, day by day, to tolerate the unpredictability of my life and gradually learn new ways to cope with uncertainty. While I am depressing myself, I want everything to be perfect and under my control. I know now that I will be happier when I learn how to tolerate a pleasant mood without telling myself that it will not last. (I also know about this last one from personal experience when I started taking care of myself).
We believe that the closer that we come to God, as we understand God, the closer our God draws to us. We believe that whatever we want changed in our life this can best be accomplished by approaching the God of our understanding and letting his power greater than ourselves steer us across the stormy sea.
3 thoughts on “Remove the letters “d”, “e”, and “i” from the word depression and I have “press on”!”
Press on indeed that’s what I do.
I keep moving toward a tiny clue.
I run, I walk, I hope, I pray,
Somehow I always manage to stay.
Keep on trucking!!!PRESS ON!
I have been attending many more twelve step meetings than usual. I feel much better. I am very grateful to my higher power.