“Tom asked why we needed Step Four in our recovery which states that “we made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.” He said that he was depressed and didn’t need anything else to make him feel worse – like dredging up things that he might have done in the past. Why, Tom wondered, should he resurrect old ghosts? Anyway, when we spoke about a moral inventory it reminded him of religion with its “do’s and “don’ts ” with special emphasis on the “don’ts.” Tom said he came into Depressed Anonymous to learn about what was making him depressed and that he didn’t need anything else to make him feel guilty or sadder.
Some people think that for a person to dredge up old hurts and wrongs will make them that much more depressed. I guess it depends on what type of stuff we put on our inventory. The following list will help our sadness persist: our perfectionism, our need to control our fears, guilt, shame or resentments, dishonesty, selfishness, passivity, anger, indecisiveness, fear of change or finally the inability to live with uncertainty. When we begin to ask God for help in removing these areas from our live, this asking for help will not make us more depressed – it will in fact make us more hopeful. In Step Three we said we make a decision. This means just that and not just a promise as it says in the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book. When we begin to surrender our will and our life to the Higher Power and are willing to expose our effects to others in the group, it is then that our life may be able to take on a peace coupled with new purpose. This really is an essential and necessary step that has to be taken if we want to leave our prison of depression behind.” SOURCE: Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Page 53.
In our Depressed Anonymous Workbook, which coordinates each of the Twelve Steps, with its questions and answers coordinated with the individual Twelve Step commentaries in the Depressed Anonymous big book, we can discover who we are and how we became the way we are.
Here we can deepen our awareness of what makes us who we are by continuing our search by means of those questions put forward in our Depressed Anonymous Workbook. Because of the essential nature of the inventory procedure as outlined in our personal recovery program, an individual will see that their own openness to the process will provide them with a wealth of hope and serenity.
“Working the 4th Step is like coming home a different route. It is a path that is filled with signposts that point us in a different direction than where we are used to going. And for many of us this is in a different direction than where we are used to going. And for many of us this is the first time that we are really intent upon taking a good hard look at who we are. This taking inventory of ourselves has much to do with our loving ourselves and making ourselves open to a new path and feeling different.” The Depressed Anonymous Workbook, (2002). Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. The 4th Step, Page 24.
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MORE TOMORROW ABOUT THE 4TH STEP.