“As I began working on the abuse issues in therapy, the pieces of my life began to fall together in a way they never could have before, as I had never dealt with this catastrophic event. In the book, Depressed? Here is a way out! the author talks about how people find their time of depression to be one of the great gifts in their life. The first time I read this, I thought it was the craziest thing I had ever heard. Yet during this time of depression, I have learned and I have grown. I have come to understand myself and my God in a way I never could before.
It has been many years now. Life is starting to come together for me again, one day at a time by the grace of God and the fellowship of this program. From the very first time I walked through the doors of Depressed Anonymous I knew that I was in the right place. Having been an active member of Alcoholics Anonymous for so many years, I was already a firm believer in the Twelve Steps. I attended meetings, I worked the Steps with my sponsor. I used the Depressed Anonymous phone list and talked to people about my pain and my day to day problems. I read the book and followed the suggestions in it.
With God, through Depressed Anonymous, this program and the fellowship literally carried me through the darkest time of my life and God did not let me die. I have truly experienced the ‘miracle of the group.’ I have heard it said that sometimes God’s greatest miracles are unanswered prayers. I believe it. After all, I am one.”
Copyright(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition.(2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY. Pages 119-120.
How many times have we voiced the words “I’m gonna do this” or “I’m gonna do that?” One of my favorites is “I’ll do it when I feel better.” The problem with this statement is that I never feel better. The problem with all these statements of what we are going to do are filled with conditions. Or when I say I’m’ gonna do something , I always find some excuse not to do it.
We like to put off what we need most. I know that I really need to see a dentist, but I keep putting it off. I mean, who likes pain? Or I know that I need to talk to my sponsor, but I’d much rather just stay in bed and sleep off my sadness. My pillow is my counselor. I know I’m gonna go to a Depressed Anonymous meeting, as I promised my friend, but not tonight. I’ll tell him I’ll be there tomorrow, .
The problem here is that “one of these days ” is never today. We don’t want to live and be responsible for what happens to us today. We want to dwell in a past that we can never get back or the tomorrow which hasn’t come yet. It’s like the guy who goes into the local pub and he sees a huge sign on the wall with large red letters, ” FREE BEER TOMORROW!” “Wow” he thought to himself, “I’ll be back tomorrow .”
Sure enough, here he comes. He goes up to the bartender, points to the sign, and says “I’ll take one of those free beers.” The bartender smiles and tells him, “come back tomorrow. ” “But today is tomorrow” the guy tells the bartender. ” The bartender, puts his hands on the bar, slowly and emphatically telling the guy, “That’s tomorrow. Today is not tomorrow!” The bartender gives out with a laugh. The guy walks out of the bar and could be heard repeating “I get it, I get it.”
I will take care of what needs to be taken care of today–today is all I have.
Today is not tomorrow. Get it?