I will be in touch with my feelings throughout the day. I refuse to run from what I feel.
“The ability to experience one’s feelings without resisting or running from them, determines to a large degree whether a person is healthy are not.”
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I’m going to make a real effort today to do what I see works for depressed persons like myself. They all say that the longer they are in the program (Depressed Anonymous) , the more feelings they are able to express and the less the unpleasant feelings of fear dominates their life. I am finding that by writing my feelings down, the less frightening they seem to be to me. I am now able to deal head on with my feelings.
My addiction was a way of walling off my pain. In time, I became addicted to the pain and in doing so, I lost myself in the process. I find this experience to be a freeing one.
My addiction was a way of walling off pain. Now the pain is more important than what I am running away from.
What I experience in my life determines to a large extent what I predict life to become. My past experiences are predictors of a life not as yet lived. I am wanting to experience the fact that my good days are more frequent now and my bad days occurring not as often.
God, the more I give up my need to be depressed the more I’m finding that I’m becoming more assertive and truly present to others in my life. I want you to help me feel my feelings and express them today. [ADD YOUR OWN PERSONAL THOUGHTS HERE]
SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 step fellowships. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.
“…Recovery is a gradual and pains taking process for both the person addicted to alcohol (depressive feelings) and the person addicted to the addict…I had journeyed to counselor after counselor and program after program seeking to get my husband well. But as the saying goes, “when the pain gets bad enough, you will seek the cure.” Recovery, however is looking for more than relief from the pain. In my case the cure involved a counselor, Al-Anon meetings, Al-Anon Adult children meetings, daily readings, meditations and new supportive friends. It also involved a constant struggle to be honest with myself, and to stop denying the feelings I had refused to recognize for so long. Recovery for me is a miracle. I still remember the craziness, but today my life no longer resembles a jigsaw puzzle of a thousand pieces that someone has dropped on the floor…Painful though recovery may be, it is well worth the effort and is definitely not as painful as no recovery at all.” The Forum, May 1991, Vol.39.No.5. p.11.
Comment: I know that recovery does take time and it does take work. Could this possibly be the worst thing a depressed person hears who wants to leave the prison of depression. Time and work? They tell us that they can’t even get out of bed in the morning. They have no desire to do anything, nothing, zilch! I know what that is all about. When I was depressed I too felt the pain of living like a zombie. No energy. No motivation. Stuck in my own juices of nothingness. But like the person said, quoted above, I knew that I had to do something because the pain became unbearable. That is when the 12 Steps of recovery pushed me toward a cure. They provided me a way out of my own homemade emotional prison. I had to quit denying my painful feelings and get started to work on myself. It was here at the Depressed Anonymous meeting that I was given my “toolkit” of recovery. There was no rush to get cured. There was only the desire to find a way to relieve myself from the pain of isolation and the lack of motivation to do anything for myself. My first job was to quit saddening myself. With my “toolkit” and the 12 Steps I gradually, and with time, dismantled all that was keeping me prisoner. I found the key that unlocked my prison door.
My life today is good. My feelings are no longer painful and crippling. The Depressed Anonymous Promises are true. ” …a power greater than myself restored me to sanity.”
SOURCE: Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.
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When I am feeling depressed, I repeat to myself statements such as these…”Pain is the touchstone of progress.”…”I fear no evil.” …”This, too will pass.” … “This experience can be turned to benefit.”
These fragments of prayer bring far more than mere comfort. They keep me on the track of right acceptance; they break up my compulsive themes of guilt, depression, rebellion, and pride; and sometimes they endow me with the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”
Bill W., writing in Grapevine, March 1962.
My mantra, personally, is the Serenity Prayer.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.