“It’s an addiction if you find yourself continually bashing yourself for past mistakes and /or failures. It is this constant rumination that puts us in the negative spiral which leads to more isolation, withdrawal and psychic pain. The familiar feeling of sadness and the continual inner hollowness that make our life so miserable becomes our security.”
But, where do we go from here? I myself got caught up in the spiraling downward descent into the darkness and hell of depression. I felt trapped and helpless.
My spiraling upward came when I felt the hope in the stories of those like myself, who no longer felt hopeless and helpless. I became proactive in my own recovery and survival. Some had already attempted to commit suicide. Once I discovered others just like myself, I was fascinated by the fact that others were really telling my story as well. There were differences in some of the details, but basically their stories rang true with my own. It was from that moment on that I was hooked.
Was the group my own Higher Power? Who was the God that was greater than myself? How did I contact this Power? It was listening to others that I came to believe that there is someone, somebody that I could believe in, to free me from my prison of depression.
It was just like the Wright Brothers at Kitty Hawk, North Carolina who believed that humans could fly. They had their ups and downs, (no pun intended) but their faith in what they were doing got them in the air and off the ground.
The way to get up and get moving toward recovery is to get moving and start working the Steps, one by one. You too will begin to live in hope one day at a time. You will now have a flight plan that will take you where you want to go.
The second Step of the Twelve Steps promotes the belief that we “came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
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