WHO AM I? WHAT DO I WANT? WHO IS MY GOD?
Let’s say that we want to find out who we are. First of all, we find out that we are not alone here. We have already discovered that there are many who are exactly like us –depressed. Those person who speak that they are feeling helpless and out of control because of the symptoms of depression, can help us feel more secure because they hear this hopeful language spoken at all our Depressed Anonymous meetings.
We are not in the blame game as we pointed out in the first chapter of our Depressed Anonymous manual, 3rd edition. We are here to throw some light on ourselves and not to focus on others. Now know that this has been a trap which can spiral our moods downward — moods that produce hopeless and helpless feelings . We are here to face the light and decide what we need to do to get better. This means that we look at the Steps which we need to incorporate into our lives in order to get out of the prison of our depression. The first step , as you can see, is admitting that we are helpless over our depression and that our lives had become unmanageable . Now that we admit powerlessness , and in a certain paradoxical sense, we gain a new power beginning to lift us out of the darkness.
We grant that our lives have been affected by our original family environment, either in a positive or a negative way, or somewhere in between. We know that many times, physical and sexual abuse, plus ongoing negative ruminations can be the cause of depression. Deaths and traumatic life events can also be the cause of depression. Many people say that they have been depressed all their lives after being confronted with the symptoms of depression.
Blaming others, for our depression today, such as our parents, church, teachers, and others , can put us on two different paths. One will take us down one road and the other down another. We can take the road less traveled as Scot Peck points out in his popular book THE ROAD LESS TREAVELED. One will take us down the road for more depression and the other will take us down the road of discovery–discovering the tools for freeing ourselves from the shackles of depression.
I believe that if we want to blame everything outside of ourselves for keeping us from being happy, others, even God , we are missing the point. Remember, we are all the choices that we make. If you want the light then you must walk in it!
If you believe that you had nothing to do with your depression then the good implication is that you didn’t cause it. The bad implication is that if you didn’t cause it then you could get it again, like the flu or a cold. But since depression isn’t a cold or a flu or a germ/bacterium we try taking responsibility for our depression and its symptoms. We move on from there. The quickest answer is that it may lead me to take full responsibility however I can to overcome depression –this may mean taking the medication to reduce the symptoms, seek talk therapy, or be an active participant in a beloved and accepting community, a mutual aid group where they know us by name, love us and accept us. No such statements as “snap out of it” are spoken here.
It is a fact that people who have a greater control over their lives and their environment are less depressed than those who have less or little control over their own lives.”