These few words are ones that all base ball players hear when they go to bat. “Just get on base.” If a team is to win the game they must get on base. They have to be able to score at home plate and rack up points needed to win the game.
In our world, we know that to recover from any problem, disaster or misfortune, we have to get back on our feet and get to work. The longer we wait to get the help we need the longer will we suffer with whatever ails us. In my own life, I know that this to be true. When I started to slide slowly down that slippery slope of sadness, I could feel, in an analogous way, my feet slipping out from under me. I was losing control. It was when I finally lost all control and could no longer get up the energy to do anything-except force myself to go to work- that I got on base. If I was to win this battle then I had to do something. It was when I admitted to myself that I was losing it that I did something to help myself.
Because of my involvement in another 12 Step program of recovery I now knew that I had to admit that I was in trouble, physically, emotionally and every other way. So, with the urgency that my situation demanded, I got on base and started to walk miles every day I had to shake off this inner hollowness and jitteriness that had my whole existence in its teeth. By remembering the 1st Step of the program, that “We admitted that we were powerless over depression and that our lives had become unmanageable.” Yes, my life was more than just unmanageable-I was totally frozen in place. I could only think about me-what was happening to me? It was a brand new experience and totally foreign to me. I always was “in control” and now I was totally “out of control.” Something else was running my life. I felt like the proverbial prisoner locked down in the small confining cell of my despair.
To cut to the chase here, I finally got back to a feeling of lightness in my spirit, after having walked miles for weeks. By admitting that I couldn’t go on the way I was, I made the choice to do something.- get on base (work the Steps of the program of recovery). With the help of my belief in a Higher Power, God as I understand God, I finally got moving and got better. It was slow process of recovery but it worked.
I want everyone to know who is reading this now and feeling alone that there is hope for you too. It does take time and it takes work-there are no magic wands waved over our head and presto! we are back on the playing field of life again. No, it takes time, work and a day by day, Step by Step program of taking care of ourselves coupled with the belief that I too can get better. With that attitude you will not only get on base but you can win the game.
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NOTE: If you would like to start your own program of recovery having a roadmap out of your own prison of depression it would do you well to read the Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition Manual and the Depressed Anonymous Workbook. These two excellent sources of self help are published by Depressed Anonymous Publications and titled the HOME STUDY KIT.
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