I made a decision years ago, albeit an unconscious one, that the horrible negative thoughts and painful feelings which afflicted me on an ongoing basis would never change. I am referring to my inability to climb out of bed a morning, the jittery deadly hollowness that filled my stomach, plus the anxiety of waiting for the “other shoe to drop” which I believed would bring on some catastrophic event to make matters worse in my life.
But, here is the kicker, I discovered Depressed Anonymous, at the point of personal despair, and found hope in a fellowship of men and women who likewise had made a decision to give up–some even attempting suicide. But by the grace of God, my surrender to this power greater than myself, brought me into a way out of depression and one that has lasted these many years. I now follow the program of the Twelve Steps where I believe their Promises that if I am serious about following this path, my life will gradually get better and peace will be restored to one’s life. And guess what, that is exactly what happened to me. The same can happen to you as well.
“Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understand God.” Step Three of Depressed Anonymous.
Source: Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.