“If surrender of our wills to the ‘care of God’ is of the essence of the spiritual life, for anyone who truly desires to free themselves from a chronic and compulsive behavior such as depression, then the Twelve Steps can be your stepping stones to the path of a hope filled life.”
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I used to hear the word “surrender” as it made me feel like I was in the hands and under the total domination of another. It was like I had no control whatsoever as to what I was to do or what I was to be. I was blind to the fact that in reality I had already surrendered my life to my sadness so that whenever I wanted to hide, or isolate myself, I just saddened myself and so didn’t have to feel anything. I am surrendering to the God of my understanding; slowly my life is filling with light and hope and this is what I really want for myself. I am finding that the ‘care of God’ is much better than anything I could ever wished for. My life is one filled with hope rather than being hopeless.
The spiritual life for me is filled with the excitement of knowing that this God of mine, as I understand him, is today wanting to lead me further into the light of his healing power. My spiritual life is filled now with a close and personal relationship with a God who loves and guides me on a minute-to-minute basis.
We are going to get as close to God today as we choose to get.
SOURCE: Copyright (c) Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 Step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Pages 257-258. December 29.