Is our mind’s gearshift mostly set in “park”? Is our mind set in “loaf” with no destination in sight?
When my mind finally stopped racing and my foot got off the accelerator, I ended up in “park.” It was at that time that I felt helpless and without a map to help find my way out of that deep hole that I had dug for myself. All I could do was to surf the web. And that was pretty much where I spent my time. Nowhere to go but everywhere. No destination in particular that was driving my interest.
I would sit, and sit some more. My mind was like a “drunken monkey.” I knew that I had to move. I had to find a way to help myself or have someone help me. And then I read from my HIGHER THOUGHTS FOR DOWN DAYS the following words:
” I hate to think it, much less to say it, but I need to make a radical change in the way I lead my life. I have come to the point in my life where I might need to make a big decision as to whether I stay where I am (in park) or move to something else…and I will be better for the change. I need to take the Fourth Step Inventory. I need to make a fearless and moral inventory. I know that the more I escape into the seclusion of my inner world and focus on me, how bad I think I am, the more sad I become.
I am discovering how I can now feel better and that my program is a spiritual one. My recovery continues to grow the more I take stock of my strengths and I see the world as a place of healing instead of a place of fear.”
It’s time to put your life in drive. Know life is just ahead. The Depressed Anonymous meeting is about to start! Please come in and join us.
SOURCE: (c) Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 Step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Ky.
(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, Ky.
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