I will affirm myself by getting in touch with my feelings and expressing them.
” To know how to behave you have to rely on other people’s opinions, and so you live under the tyrannies of ‘they.’ What will they think? is the thing that accompanies every action and determines ever decision.”
I am so accustomed to living my life on the basis of others feelings, thoughts, and decisions about myself that in the end I feel de-selfed. I feel empty and horribly alone; I feel saddened over the loss of my identity as a person.
Now, I am hopeful as I see that one of the best ways to defeat my sense of nothingness is to seek out the presence of this force bigger than myself and be willing today –just for today, to let it work its power in my life. My identity as a person is going to grow slowly and spiritually.
When depressed, it’s hard to make up my mind. Just knowing that this is part of my depression makes it less painful as I make a mental decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God, as I understand him.
Our God is consciousness and is knowledgeable of everything in the universe. Our God is at the center of our lives, replacing the sadness around which our world revolves. The more conscious we are of God working in our minds and thoughts, the more we are going to feel like some one we can love.”
“MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU! Again, we are back to the conviction that the God of my understanding will guide me down the path that best suits me and my recovery. How many times have I reflected upon comments made at Depressed Anonymous meetings by members who speak freely about God’s work in their lives. It is amazing how often the thought pops into my mind how frequently people speak about God’s power operating in their lives. The comments made by members originate in their own “spiritual awakening” resultant of living out the Steps in their own lives. Anyway, it’s heartening for me to know and believe that God will work in one’s life if one trusts this power greater than oneself.
— SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 Daily Thoughts and Meditations for 12 Step Fellowship Groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, Ky 402i7. Page 49.