Victim or survivor? Which shall it be? How can I be a survivor when I can hardly motivate myself to do anything, just anything positive to kick start my recovery. What is the first thing that has to happen for me to get on the road to recovery.
For my own life, the motivator was to face the fact that something physical was happening to me as I was finding myself in a continual funk. Since we are of one piece, the fatigue that came from just the simple process of thinking began to affect my whole body. I found that my thinking became obsessive and compulsively totally centered on my life’s losses plus the shame and guilt that accompanied them. I felt like the guy who is walking around with the sign on his back saying “kick me.” In my mind there was no way out. I was in lockdown. I was down on my luck and flat on my back.
It was then that I knew I had to make a decision–get up and move or stay down and die. I got back up on my feet and decided to move. I really had not a clue where I was headed but I knew that doing nothing was not the answer. It was then that I went to a Twelve Step meeting, developed by persons like me, depressed and flat on their backs. But there was a major difference between them and myself. These folks had a solution. They explained how their own way out was to get connected with those like themselves (depressed), flee their isolation and start using a plan that promised hope and freedom from the prison bars of their own depression.
These folks wrote a book, it is called Depressed Anonymous and presents us with a plan that works. The plan is filled with hope. And if there is no Depressed Anonymous in your community you can use the Home Study Kit for your personal guide.
You will discover that your recovery commitment to yourself has placed you on the recovery road. The Promises of Depressed Anonymous as outlined in our program will bring you to a new place, an horizon where your life appears filled with the light of hope. You will become a survivor. If you want to learn more about who we are and what we can achieve as part of the fellowship, you will find the tools that will bring a change about in your own life which will bring you in contact with others like ourselves but also will bring hope and serenity. For information that will inspire you and guide you for what works for us, and for you, is to go to our Homepage at depressedanon.com where you will find a list of articles and info, plus books written by those of us who have been depressed, but now live to help others like ourselves. We’ve been there –done that. Now we live one day at a time with hope and freedom.
(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. (2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY.