On the subject of laziness – I have to resist the temptation to label myself as lazy. There is a finality to that statement and that I am doomed to be in that state forever. What I find helpful is instead bring a sense of agency to the situation. For instance:
In this moment I feel extremely fatigued and I choose not to do this task.
It’s OK for me to choose not to do the task. No one will die as a result of that decision. Also stating it as a choice opens the possibility that in the future I can change my mind and do the task. It leaves options open and available to me. Depression feels like I have no choice. Serenity feels like there is possibility of something different. It seems to work for me. Try it on for size and see if it fits. If it doesn’t that is OK – you now know a technique that doesn’t work for you. There are many other techniques here in the room that you can try. I need to be willing to try new ways of handling things.
Yours in recovery, Bill R