One of the more difficult exercises in gymnastic sports is the balance beam. Now, that is only my opinion. And when the gymnast performs a somersault on this narrow beam and manages to keep their balance, this is really a feat to behold.
When I was depressed I felt like the gymnast who missed their somersault and came tumbling off the beam. And it hurt–big time. In fact, it hurt for many months later. For some depressed, the hurt lasts a lifetime.
The point I want to make is that we have to make choices. We want to make a decision that can make us feel differently and better — not worse. We want to get back on the beam, make a decision to change how we do things. We will correct what got us where we are now and go forward with new strategies for living a life with hope and faith in a power greater than ourselves. Our new habits of thinking and feeling positive will definitely change our behaviors. We can continue to be on the beam.
“One makes a choice when making a decision. One of the hard things in a depressed person’s life is making a decision. The indecision is what really gets to a person continually to remain off balance. Usually this indecision is the result of an emotinmal war going on inside, and both sides war over who will have their way. The more depressed we become, the less able are we able to muster up the necessary energy to make a decision that will benefit us. I believe that this moral type of inventory is not going to be detrimental to our recovery because it is all about our recvovery. We are not intending for it to make us feel ashamed, but to help us see that if we want to feel better, then we have to start to make some changes, which are gradual at first. Changing old habits and ways of thinking will with time and work make our personal world a better place to live. Just as the Third Step states that we made a decision to turn our wills and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood God, we can believe that our recovery is about decision and choices. We have to decide a hundred times daily that we are going to turn our wills over to care of the God of our understanding. In time we will feel secure enough to put our depression behind us. In other words, our depression will no longer serve a purpose in our life.”
(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition.(2011) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. KY. Pg.73.
(c) I’ll do it when I feel better. Hugh Smith (2017) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville,Ky.