I have hope that I can accept myself today and just let fly by all the old messages from old tapes of childhood.
“You desperately wanted people to love you, but you became very wary of giving your love to others. You reasoned that the less you loved another person, the less it would hurt when the inevitable rejection came.” Dorothy Rowe
CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT
I have been so holed up in my own little world of feeling hurt and rejected that to attempt to love someone else seems the greatest challenge of my life. I desire so badly to be loved by someone else, that this lack of another’s love makes my isolation from others so hurtful.
After witnessing the miracle of the group of Depressed Anonymous, where depressed people come with their feelings of being hurt and rejected, I find that other’s love and nurture challenges me to hope once again. I can share with the group the fact that I haven’t measured up, that I am angry and that I want to just lay down and die.
I am open now to let the light of love from others, who like myself, realize that I am not alone and that I am beginning to affiliate and give of myself fro someone else’s good. In the program of recovery I am starting to love myself.
We are going to make a mental decision right now to let God, as we understand God, guide us and instruct us on how to love ourselves.
(c) Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for members of 12 Step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.KY. Pg. 38. March 3rd.