Empowerment comes from being informed and making choices that help us change our lives for the better. When I came to a Depressed Anonymous meeting I am making a first major step- namely, that I admit my presence at the group meeting that my life is out of control. My compulsion to depress myself is at the root of my inability to take on the challenge of living life with risk and enthusiasm. But how can I possibly say that I want to depress myself? We are not blaming ourselves here but are taking responsibility for our own feelings, behavior and thinking. Now that I am conscious of some negative patterns of my own behavior I can get on with learning new strategies for my own healing. With the heartfelt prayer of a monk, I now understand it is by sharing the story of my life – and with the conviction that someone is there to listen, that this can in time help me make it out of my prison of fear and sadness.
I can be empowered by taking the bull by the horn and choosing each new day, one day at a time and start to feel different. I now have the support of the group – support from people who have walked where I am walking.
I am investing in myself. I am making my recovery my highest priority. I may have been on all the antidepressant medications -I may have seen all the best counselors, psychiatrists and doctors but now finally I am going to a room full of depressed people – people who understand me and what I am going through!
These people I discover are investing in themselves. What will I find there? I will find some of the most caring people on the face of the earth. Some of the group will have been coming for months, and they say that they are having more good days than bad and it’s getting better. The more meetings they attend the better they feel and the more support they receive. They are feeling empowered. It’s the miracle of the group. Instead of living with a compulsion to repeat old negative and life negating thoughts and feelings we now have a compulsion to live with hope plus a desire for a brand new way of living — and not just the way that we once talked to ourselves.
We are going to get a new life. And here is how.
I now feel that that I am getting better learning how not to repeat my old way of thinking, feeling and believing and isolating myself when I fear –whatever. I now know that with work and patience I will get better. For most of us, it has taken us a few years to get here (depressed) so why not take the plunge today and work toward getting better–one day at a time – one meeting at a time — and using the “tools” of the program.
It has only been when I began to examine the way I talked to myself (negatively) and how I gradually isolated myself from a life lived in serenity and hope, that I realized I could change this pattern of diminishing myself . Others were doing it and so why couldn’t I? And so can you!
Hugh
SOURCE: (c)I’ll do it when I feel better.(2014) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.
(c) Depressed Anonymous, 3rd edition. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.
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