I want to believe that my God, as I understand Him, will continually make a path for me through life. I want today to listen to its leading.
“Our patterns are more successful than the fortune – telling arts since we expect our patterns to prove true, and expecting this, we usually find that they do. Edmund Carpenter once wrote, ‘We say, if I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn’t have believed it, ‘ but the phrase should be, ‘If I hadn’t believed it with all my heart, I wouldn’t have seen it.”
I usually expected bad things to happen to me because bad things usually did happen to me, as Dorothy Rowe points out in her six immutable beliefs that make up the prison of our depression. I used to believe that God punished me for all the bad things I did in my life and for my being the bad person that I believe that I am. But now, I am changing my belief about my depression and that I am only a passive victim.
It’s as if they believe that my depression is like a rotted tooth, a thing, that can be extracted I am slowly believing that it is important what I believe about myself and how I have a responsibility to extract myself from my own lifestyle of sadness. I do know this, that if I continue to think the way I have over the last couple of years, I will stay stuck in the deep pit of depression.
I am now believing with all my heart that I will get better with the help of my own resources and through the help of others and the Twelve Step programs.
God, you can make all things new but you never infringe your will upon any of us. But the more peace that we receive from turning our will over to yours, the more I can predict that my future will be more according to your design.
SOURCE: Higher Thoughts for down days: 365 daily thoughts and meditations for 12 step fellowship groups. Depressed Anonymous Publications. (1993, 1999). Louisville, Ky 40217.(pgs. 35-36). February 16.
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