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The Science of Depression and Apathy: Why It’s Hard to Care and How to Overcome It

Understanding Apathy in Depression: The Brain’s Role and How to Reignite Motivation

Apathy—the feeling of not caring, lacking motivation, and struggling to take action—is a common and frustrating symptom of depression. It can make even the simplest tasks feel overwhelming and strip away enjoyment from things that once brought pleasure. Many people experiencing apathy describe it as feeling emotionally “numb” or disconnected, making it hard to engage with life in meaningful ways.

This isn’t just a matter of willpower—it’s rooted in the brain. Changes in brain chemistry, disrupted neural pathways, and prolonged stress responses all contribute to the difficulty in finding motivation. When key brain systems are out of sync, activities that once felt rewarding may seem pointless, and even basic self-care can feel exhausting.

The good news is that apathy isn’t permanent, and there are ways to gently restore motivation. By understanding the biological causes, we can use targeted strategies—such as lifestyle changes, DBT techniques, and other practical tools—to work with the brain rather than against it. Small, consistent steps can gradually rebuild engagement, making it easier to reconnect with daily life.

1. Neurotransmitter Imbalances (Brain Chemicals Out of Sync)

What’s Happening?

Neurotransmitters like dopamine, serotonin, and norepinephrine that help send signals between nerve cells, helping regulate mood, motivation, and energy levels. In depression:

  • Dopamine (the “motivation & reward” chemical) is often low, making activities feel unrewarding.
  • Serotonin (the “mood stabilizer”) can be depleted, leading to feelings of emptiness.
  • Norepinephrine (the “energy & focus” chemical) may be lacking, causing sluggishness and lack of drive.

How It Feels:

  • “I know I should get up and do something, but I just don’t care.”
  • “Nothing feels interesting or worth the effort.”
  • “Even simple tasks seem exhausting.”

Easily Available Remedies:

  • Dopamine Boosters:
    • Behavioral Activation (DBT Technique): Start small with one task, even if you don’t feel like it. Completing something, even small, can trigger a dopamine release.
    • Eat Protein-Rich Foods: Eggs, lean meats, nuts, and seeds help the brain produce dopamine naturally.
    • Celebrate Small Wins: Checking off tasks, no matter how small, reinforces reward pathways.
    • Engage in Play & Novelty: Trying new things (even a new coffee shop or music genre) can stimulate dopamine.
  • Serotonin Boosters:
    • Get Sunlight: 10–20 minutes of sunlight daily boosts serotonin production. If sunlight is scarce, consider a light therapy lamp.
    • Exercise (Even Light Activity): Walking, stretching, or gentle yoga can naturally raise serotonin levels.
    • Complex Carbs & Omega-3s: Whole grains, bananas, salmon, and walnuts help serotonin production.
    • Gratitude Practice: Listing three things you appreciate can subtly improve serotonin levels.
  • Norepinephrine Boosters:
    • Cold Showers or Splashing Cold Water on Face: Activates alertness by stimulating norepinephrine.
    • Listening to Upbeat Music: Can improve alertness and mood.

2. Brain Structure & Connectivity Issues

What’s Happening?

Brain imaging studies show that depression reduces activity in the prefrontal cortex (responsible for decision-making, motivation, and self-regulation) and alters the function of the basal ganglia (involved in movement and reward). These changes make starting tasks and feeling motivated physically harder.

How It Feels:

  • “I know I need to do this, but my brain just won’t cooperate.”
  • “Everything feels mentally ‘foggy’ or slow.”
  • “I want to care, but it feels impossible.”

Easily Available Remedies:

  • Mindfulness & Deep Breathing (DBT Technique): Activating the prefrontal cortex through meditation or guided breathing helps re-engage decision-making abilities.
  • ‘5-Minute Rule’: Commit to just five minutes of an activity. Once you start, it’s easier to keep going.
  • Movement-Based Therapy: Even slow, rhythmic movements (walking, stretching, rocking) stimulate the basal ganglia, making action feel more natural.
  • Cognitive Engagement: Reading, puzzles, or mentally stimulating activities (even games) can help reconnect brain pathways.

3. White Matter & Neural Pathway Disruptions

What’s Happening?

Depression can affect white matter, which is responsible for connecting different brain regions. When these connections weaken, it becomes harder to transition from thought to action, and emotions and motivation may feel “disconnected.”

How It Feels:

  • “I want to care, but it feels like my brain won’t let me.”
  • “My thoughts feel stuck or disconnected.”
  • “I can think about what I should do, but I can’t make myself do it.”

Easily Available Remedies:

  • Physical Touch & Sensory Input:
    • Weighted blankets or hugging something soft can activate the nervous system, improving processing speed.
    • Holding an object (like a stress ball) while thinking about a task can bridge the gap between thought and action.
  • Routine & Repetition: The brain strengthens used pathways, so sticking to small, repeated actions (e.g., morning coffee ritual, a short daily walk) rewires motivation circuits over time.
  • Journaling (DBT Technique): Writing down small, actionable steps reinforces connections between thinking and doing.

4. Inflammation & Stress Hormones

What’s Happening?

Chronic stress and depression increase inflammation and over-activate the HPA axis (the stress-response system), leading to high levels of cortisol (the stress hormone). This can shut down motivation and energy over time.

How It Feels:

  • “I feel constantly drained and heavy.”
  • “I can’t handle even small amounts of stress.”
  • “Everything feels overwhelming and exhausting.”

Easily Available Remedies:

  • Anti-Inflammatory Foods:
    • Turmeric, ginger, green tea, blueberries, and dark chocolate have been linked to reduced inflammation and improved mood.
    • Probiotics (yogurt, kimchi, sauerkraut) help gut health, which is connected to mood regulation.
  • Gentle Movement:
    • Restorative yoga or slow stretching reduces cortisol levels and promotes relaxation.
  • Grounding Techniques (DBT Strategy):
    • Engaging the five senses (noticing textures, scents, and sounds) shifts the body out of stress mode and lowers cortisol.

5. Apathy vs. Depression: Understanding the Difference

What’s Happening?

  • Depression includes persistent sadness, guilt, and emotional pain.
  • Apathy is more about feeling empty, indifferent, or lacking motivation. Some people with apathy don’t feel deeply sad—they just feel nothing.

How It Feels:

  • “I don’t feel sad, I just don’t feel anything.”
  • “Even things I know I used to love don’t spark interest.”
  • “I don’t have the energy to care about anything.”

Easily Available Remedies:

  • Act ‘As If’ (DBT Opposite Action Strategy):
    • Even if you don’t feel like engaging, acting as if you do (e.g., putting on upbeat music, forcing a smile, standing up straight) can create emotional momentum.
  • Social Connection:
    • Even short, low-effort interactions (texting a friend, sitting in a café) can stimulate engagement without requiring deep emotional effort.
  • Creative Expression:
    • If verbal communication feels exhausting, express through art, music, or movement.

Final Thoughts: Small Steps Lead to Big Changes

Apathy in depression is not a personal failure—it’s the result of complex biochemical and neurological processes. The key is to work with your brain, using small, manageable steps to gently reignite motivation.

These strategies might seem small, difficult, or even silly at first—especially when motivation is low. However, science shows that even tiny actions can gradually rewire the brain and restore a sense of engagement. The key is consistency; small efforts build over time, making it easier to regain momentum.

If apathy is severe and persistent, consider professional support, such as therapy, medication, or structured behavioral programs. You are not alone in this, and there are ways to regain motivation and joy, one step at a time.

This article is dedicated to my dear friend Max, whose strength and resilience in the face of struggle continue to inspire me. You’ve been there for me in ways that I strive to match, and I hope these insights can offer you the same support and understanding you’ve always given me. May we both continue to grow, support one another, and find hope in the smallest steps.

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DBT Grounding Techniques – Part 5 Putting It Into Use

Part 5: Putting It All Together – Creating Your Grounding Ritual

You’ve now explored Mindfulness, Distress Tolerance, Emotion Regulation, and Interpersonal Effectiveness—each offering powerful tools to help you stay grounded in difficult moments. But real-life challenges don’t always fit neatly into one category. That’s why the final step is about combining these techniques into a structured grounding ritual that you can turn to whenever you need stability.

When emotions overwhelm you, drawing from all four DBT modules can create a powerful and structured grounding ritual. Combining these practices helps you address the physical, emotional, and relational aspects of distress, guiding you toward calmness and control.

By integrating skills from all four DBT modules, you can create a personalized approach to managing distress, regulating emotions, and staying present—even in the toughest moments. Let’s explore how to bring it all together.

Step 1: Pause and Breathe Deeply (Mindfulness)

Start by grounding yourself in the present moment. Mindfulness creates the mental space needed to approach the situation with clarity.

How to Practice:

  • Take a deep breath, inhaling for 4 counts, holding for 4, and exhaling for 6.
  • Visualize your breath as a wave, washing tension out of your body.
  • If your thoughts wander, gently guide them back to your breath without judgment.

Why It Works:
This activates your parasympathetic nervous system, calming your body and quieting your mind so you can think more clearly.

Step 2: Splash Cold Water on Your Face (Distress Tolerance)

Engage your body to interrupt the cycle of emotional overwhelm. TIPP skills are especially useful for regaining control in the moment.

How to Practice:

  • Use cold water, hold an ice cube, or place a cold compress on your forehead or cheeks.
  • Pair this with paced breathing to further calm your system.

Why It Works:
The temperature change triggers your dive reflex, reducing heart rate and calming the body. This brings you back to the present.

Step 3: Challenge the Thought Causing Overwhelmedness (Emotion Regulation)

Once your body feels calmer, examine the thoughts driving your emotional reaction.

How to Practice:

  • Ask yourself: “What triggered this feeling? Is it based on facts or assumptions?”
  • Use the “Check the Facts” technique to reframe exaggerated or unhelpful thoughts.
  • Example: Replace “I can’t handle this” with “I’m feeling overwhelmed, but I can take it one step at a time.”

Why It Works:
Shifting your perspective helps you address emotions logically, reducing their intensity and making them easier to manage.

Step 4: Communicate Using DEAR MAN (Interpersonal Effectiveness)

If another person is involved in the situation, use DEAR MAN to express yourself effectively and maintain the relationship.

How to Practice:

  • Describe the situation: “When you didn’t respond to my message…”
  • Express your feelings: “…I felt hurt and unsure if you were upset with me.”
  • Assert what you need: “I’d appreciate a quick reply, even if it’s just to say you’ll respond later.”
  • Reinforce the benefit: “This way, I’ll know everything’s okay between us.”

Why It Works:
Clear, calm communication reduces misunderstandings and fosters connection, even in emotionally charged moments.

Creating a Flow for Your Grounding Ritual

  1. Pause and Focus (Mindfulness):
    Take 1-2 minutes to ground yourself through breathing or observing your surroundings with the Five-Senses exercise.
  2. Shift Your Physical State (Distress Tolerance):
    Use a temperature-based TIPP skill or self-soothing technique to calm your body. Radical Acceptance of the situation may assist now or at the next stage in this flow.
  3. Examine and Adjust Your Thoughts (Emotion Regulation):
    Check the facts or use opposite action to address unhelpful emotional patterns.
  4. Engage With Others Mindfully (Interpersonal Effectiveness):
    If the situation involves another person, use DEAR MAN or FAST to maintain your boundaries and self-respect while fostering understanding.

Example in Practice:

Scenario: You’re feeling overwhelmed after receiving criticism from a colleague.

  1. Mindfulness: Step outside for a moment, take a deep breath, and focus on the sensation of the air against your skin.
  2. Distress Tolerance: Hold a cold water bottle against your wrists to calm your body.
  3. Emotion Regulation: Ask yourself, “Was their criticism factual, or am I interpreting it as a personal attack?” Reframe the thought: “This feedback is an opportunity to grow, not a judgment of my worth.”
  4. Interpersonal Effectiveness: Use DEAR MAN to address the issue with your colleague:
    • Describe: “When you shared your feedback earlier…”
    • Express: “…I felt caught off guard and a bit overwhelmed.”
    • Assert: “I’d like to understand more so I can improve.”
    • Reinforce: “This will help me meet expectations better in the future.”

Why This Works

By integrating techniques from all four DBT modules, you address the emotional, physical, and relational aspects of distress. This holistic approach helps you regain control, navigate challenges effectively, and build resilience over time.

DBT Grounding Techniques – Part 2 Distress Tolerance

Part 2: Distress Tolerance – Riding Out the Storm

When emotions become overwhelming, it can feel like you’re trapped in a tidal wave of distress. In these moments, it’s easy to fall into impulsive reactions that might bring short-term relief but create bigger problems in the long run. Distress tolerance is about getting through the moment safely—without making things worse.

These techniques won’t solve the underlying issue, but they will help you stay grounded, regain control, and make it to the other side with clarity. Let’s explore practical DBT strategies that can help you endure emotional intensity while keeping your well-being intact.

Distress tolerance focuses on managing emotional pain without resorting to harmful or impulsive behaviors. These skills are not about solving problems, but rather about enduring intense moments in a way that allows you to regain control. Below are grounding practices drawn from this module to help you survive difficult situations.

1. TIPP Skills: Physically Resetting Your Emotional State

The TIPP skills are designed to help regulate your body’s physical and emotional response to distress. By addressing your physiological state, you can interrupt the cycle of emotional overwhelmedness.

How to Practice TIPP:

  1. Temperature: This shocks your system and stimulates the dive reflex, which can lower your heart rate and help you feel calmer.
    • Use cold sensations to quickly reduce emotional intensity.
    • Example: Hold an ice cube in your hand, splash cold water on your face, or place a cold pack on the back of your neck.
  2. Intense Exercise: This releases endorphins, which naturally improve mood and reduce stress.
    • Engage in a brief burst of physical activity to channel nervous energy.
    • Example: Try jumping jacks, push-ups, running in place, or a brisk walk.
  3. Paced Breathing:
    • Focus on slowing your breath to calm your nervous system.
    • Example: Inhale deeply for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, and exhale slowly for 6-8 counts. Imagine each exhale as a release of tension, activating your parasympathetic “rest and digest” system.
  4. Progressive Muscle Relaxation: This technique reduces physical tension and signals safety to your brain.
    • Tense and relax muscle groups systematically, starting from your feet and moving upward to your head.
    • Example: Tense your feet for 5 seconds, release, and notice the relaxation. Then move to your calves, thighs, etc.

2. Self-Soothing Using the Five Senses

Self-soothing involves nurturing yourself by engaging your senses in comforting ways. This practice can help you feel grounded and cared for during moments of distress.

How to Practice:

  1. Touch:
    • Wrap yourself in a soft blanket, hold a stuffed animal, or apply lotion with a calming scent.
    • Feel the comforting texture and focus on the sensations.
  2. Taste:
    • Sip a warm cup of tea, savor a piece of chocolate, or chew mint gum.
    • Focus on the flavors and how they change with each bite or sip.
  3. Smell:
    • Light a scented candle, use essential oils, or smell something familiar and comforting, like freshly baked cookies or a favorite lotion.
  4. Sound:
    • Listen to calming music, nature sounds, or a playlist of songs that uplift you.
    • Pay attention to the rhythm, melody, or lyrics.
  5. Sight:
    • Look at soothing images, like photos of loved ones or nature scenes you like.
    • Focus on the colors, patterns, and details.

3. Distract with ACCEPTS: Redirecting Your Focus

ACCEPTS is an acronym for distraction techniques that help you shift your attention away from distressing emotions to regain control.

How to Practice ACCEPTS:

  1. Activities:
    • Engage in something productive or fun, like cleaning, painting, gardening, or watching a movie.
    • Keep your hands and mind busy.
  2. Contributing:
    • Shifting focus to others can provide a sense of purpose.
    • Example: Help someone else by volunteering, sending a kind message, or running an errand for a friend.
  3. Comparisons:
    • This helps reframe your mindset and build resilience.
    • Example: Compare your current situation to a past challenge you have overcome or think of someone who inspires you.
  4. Emotions:
    • By sparking new emotions, you can shift out of distress.
    • Example: Seek something that elicits a positive emotion or one that is different from what you are currently feeling, like watching a funny video or listening to upbeat music.
  5. Pushing Away:
    • Mentally set aside the problem for now. Visualize putting it in a box and “shelving” it.
    • Remind yourself you can return to it later when you feel more capable.
  6. Thoughts:
    • Intellectual focus can disrupt ruminative thoughts.
    • Example: Distract your mind by counting backward from 100 by sevens, solving a puzzle, or reading something engaging.
  7. Sensations:
    • Introduce a physical sensation to interrupt emotional overwhelm, like holding a stress ball, taking a hot shower, or chewing something crunchy.

Combining Practices

In moments of intense distress, you can layer these techniques for maximum effect:

  1. Begin with a TIPP skill to quickly reset your body’s emotional state.
  2. Transition into Self-Soothing to create a sense of comfort and safety.
  3. Use ACCEPTS to redirect your focus and engage with activities that help you feel in control.

These skills empower you to endure emotional pain, giving you time and space to process it without reacting impulsively.

Crosstalk: What is it and Why we don’t do it at Meetings

Come to Depressed Anonymous meetings and you will hear “there is no crosstalk at this meeting but members can comment directly to speakers in the chat.” The online dictionary says: Crosstalk is giving advice, criticizing or making comments about what others have already shared; questioning or interrupting the person speaking or talking while someone is sharing. Another definition which is exceedingly compelling is crosstalk is described as “casual conversation.”

What do we talk about at Depressed Anonymous meetings? There is quite a broad spectrum through the challenges and positivity, deep heartfelt experiences/feelings. We “tell on ourselves” revealing things that we would rather not be known of us yet, that is a power in dissolving shame and fear. Simple listening becomes a blessing of insights and enlightenment, simply by hearing each other. We talk “program talk” and that is not casual conversation. We learn to live one-day-at-a-time. It is not easy though it has been called “simple.” To turn the page on negativity, low energy, despair, hopelessness and choose gratitude, action and positivity is definitely not easy. Yet we are rewarded with the prospect of continuing future growth, freedom from depression. Oh, it may most certainly not be every day and moment but we hear and learn, learning as children do by repeating for our own selves what we hear has worked for our companions. We get a boost, a glimmer: “What a relief, I can get better.” After all, we come here to get better, to learn and practice the tools and develop skills to get better. Then we get to reveal the true person we really are and shed the mistaken identity falsely projected onto the screen of our minds by Depression. And the one price of admission: the desire to stop saddening ourselves. The sharing we hear may be baffling, intense, stressful. There may be heartbreak, trauma. But here we divide our sorrows and when we share our victories and gains, we double our joys. Because we are witnessed and witnessing with open hearts, with loving attention and care. That is the DA Difference, to meet each other with open hearts, loving attention and care. We see each other improving, we see ourselves with time and patience and practice, improving. We hear “I haven’t been depressed since coming to DA…” “I come to meetings, work the steps, I got a sponsor… I am getting better too.”

These are not casual conversations. No No! these are sacred words of truth, hope, light, love spoken then integrated in mind-heart-spirit. Individually and collectively, we improve. Sooner and later, we improve.

This sharing is not casual conversation. We mute ourselves when not speaking and even though we may heartily agree with what is being said, there is no “yes,” “Ah-ha,” “mmm.” There is no murmuring, no background noise because to glimpse and catch Higher Power’s idea for ourselves, well, these are flashes of silent-robed listening, devoted conscious attention.

We are hearing brilliant and commonplace miracles, they may be cloaked in tedium. Spirit is expressing through each one. With that comes great hope, great empathy, great informing of heart-mind-soul. There is IGNITION. Aeronautically speaking, “We have liftoff, Houston.” With each other, our meetings, our Twelve Steps, we spark the will to live as our true selves. We receive Grace, we Surrender, we take the Action and our stories of the miracles of living 24-four-hour days each day arise. Get ready: Hope is stoked, The Lights are On. We shine for ourselves, we shine for each other.

Doreen K, in Boston, MA January 2025

Is Serenity Boring?

On the phone with a fellow traveler this morning, a question arose.  Is Serenity boring?  Let us consult.  So Oxford Languages says:  serenity is the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled.  Boring (same dictionary) means not interesting, tedious.  This called up an immediate yawn in a three-part sigh, my hand over my mouth and feeling tired.  If we go a step further and look up Depression, Oxford says:  a medical condition in which a person feels very sad, anxious and without hope and often has physical symptoms as being unable to sleep.  (Of course, that is without Depressed Anonymous.)

Clearly, none of these is alike or interchangeable.  Serenity is a beckoning warmth, it invites us to “calm”, “untroubled ” waters.  At least every other day, I walk the 1 and 5/8 miles around Jamaica Pond.  This habit I acquired from hearing at a meeting how walking could help my depression.  Each day is a little different but my favorites are the clear-as-glass, not-a-ripple in the water except the trailing stream that follows the single file geese babies sandwiched straight up between the mom and dad.  And the end of day dusk walks with enough light for the trees and shrubs to be two places at once:  on the shore and topping the water in a marvelous mirage.  When it is quite dark dusk, it takes a while for eyes to focus in such pale light.  But then comes the grand surprise:  a crane or heron in silhouette of black, white and grey.  These are the gift of the day and evening:  the Pond giveth…..  Oh, Thank God for nature, it sets me right, it lifts my heart, it takes the toxicity of the world and injects it with its antidote of Sacredness.

Now, about Serenity.  God does grant it but maybe not right on waking.  After an inspirational reading, a little meditation, my regular yoga, a walk around the condo praying for the planet especially the animals and blessing the space, talking or texting with my DA family via phone/What’s App, things are feeling pretty good.  Good enough to start my day both knowing and feeling  I am not alone.  These, for me, hold the seeds of hope and inspiration.

Today I started something new.  Because I want that sacred thread through my day, that conscious contact with the Power greater than myself through my day.  I want extraordinary, I want to have it, to hold it, to live it.  If you had a catechism you may remember the very first question/answer.  “Where is God?  God is everywhere”!!  How I wish that teaching was expounded so we could learn and know that there is nowhere that God is not, to the edges of the Universe and to each and every heart, God is there.  And so is Divine Peace, Joy, Presence, Knowing, Bliss.  These, like God,  are always available.  The Universe (another name of God) holds no grudges, and wants me to receive all of its Good and I can have that Good.  I only need to catch the glimpse (like that heron on the dusky pond) to see it with my very own eyes and to remember God is with me and all is well.

For these ideals, I find a new use for my phone.  Every two hours I sent an alarm and so when the chime rings, there I am in an instant appointment with Higher Power, no need to wait in line.  I talk and listen and offer a prayer.  Since last Summer its been particularly challenging and that reminds me my very best prayers are “Thy will be done, not mine” and “Thank You.”

So this is how I’m wired now, wired with Twelve Steps and single days.  If you are wired like this too, we can answer the question together, is any of this boring?  “We think not.”  And as for Depression, it is what it is.  Against me alone, it can take a shot, although I vow to kick that beast to the curb every time.  But against me + my Higher Power, and me + the Power of the Group, it doesn’t have a chance.

Is Serenity boring?  I/We ….. Think …… Not.

Doreen K., New Year’s Eve, 2023

Depression is a process addiction

Depression is a process addiction, just as alcoholism is a substance addiction.

A process addiction is when a person is addicted to a particular behavior. When we speak about one addiction, like the process addiction of depression, we can include them all. We are learning that the Twelve Step program of recovery can be used to overcome negative thinking and compulsive/addictive behavior for the person who sincerely wants to get emotionally, physically and spiritually healthy.

Our Depressed Anonymous fellowship is based on a hope that no matter how bad we feel, no matter how isolated we are, or how painful we feel, we do recover.

We discover that all our negative thinking, feeling and behaviors will no longer keep us captive, isolated and in the prison of our depression. We gradually begin to change the way we think and feel, learning how to motivate ourselves, using the Spiritual principles of the Twelve Steps, and begin to get active in our own recovery. Motivation follows action!

The main positive effect of making the Steps an integral part of our daily Lives is that people can come together and find the support of their Depressed Anonymous fellowship. They in turn will find the emotional nurturing acceptance of their group and learn the social skills that can help them gradually enter life again; with hope and a heightened spirit. Once people realize that they are not alone and that they hope that they too will feel better. The beauty of a self-help group is that a person feels acceptance from the group. No one is there to tell them to “snap out of it” or that depression is all in your mind.

Finally, we see our closed system of depression, with its negative addictive thinking, feelings of despair, coupled with those behaviors which keep us afraid and anxious, gradually are being dismantled. We discover that we have choices. We don’t have to stay isolated. Our positive thinking begins to show us a way out of a system that has had us bullied into submission. Our minds are now processing hope and possibilities for a new life of freedom.

Hugh S., for the fellowship

Golden Rules For Living

1.If you open it, close it.
2.If you turn it on, turn it off.
3.If you unlock it, lock it up.
4.If you break it, admit it.
5.If you can’t fix it, call on someone who can.
6.If you value it, take care of it.
7.If you make a mess, clean it up.
8.If you borrow it, return it back.
9.If you move it, move it back.
10. If it belongs to someone else, get permission to use it.
11.If you don’t know how to operate it, leave it alone.
12.If it’s none of your business, don’t ask questions.
– Author Unknown

This article appeared first in THE ANTIDEPRESSANT TABLET, Volume 6. No.1 Autumn 1994.
Submitted by Hugh S.

Helen, gets it! “I have to take responsibility for my own life.”

The following excerpt is from a letter that Helen wrote to the Depressed Anonymous fellowship about her recovery from depression.

Her story is just one of the many stories, relating their recovery from depression, found in the Personal Stories section of Depressed Anonymous Pages 110-152.

“Now that I look back and see the way I was and see now how I am now,
I can’t believe that I ever knew that other person. This person is different altogether. I like this person now very much. I am thankful to the group. They are just wonderful. They are my family. They are my Depressed Anonymous family. I also have my church family. It is a wonderful feeling to know that there is a Higher Power that can take you through these things. At first, I thought, “I doubt that very much” when everyone was talking about the Higher Power and peace in my life. Then it happened to me. Every few days, the world dumps down on you and beats you down. That’s my life. I always think to myself that there is that extra strength that I didn’t have before. I feel that everything is going to be OK with me. I have that peace now myself.”

Copyright(c) Depressed Anonymous (1998) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY. pp 145-148.

When more is revealed

This blog was submitted by Janet M.

“There is a profound and intriguing statement that says ‘that more will be revealed.’ I believe we each have a personal experience with this call of the wild dynamic, so to speak. I felt as if I were being invited into an investigation, and its results would effortlessly appear, without any help from my mind or outside activities. In other words, beyond a body, mind and physical reality.

With no control on my part, the Higher Power would be the master of this destiny. How exciting! I just had to believe. With addiction, my poor mind was so limited with its awareness.

The same sad movie kept playing. Depressed Anonymous provided some helpful tools, with the Law of Three, Sunspots, to make an ending and an opening. A portal for peace was the liberation that I needed. I thought that I longed for peace of mind, but what was revealed was this peace didn’t belong to mind, but to me as my true nature.

With falsely identifying myself as my felt past experiences, with feeling a victim/failure/etc, or the pain body, or as Eckhart Tolle labels it, I was at a dead end. As Rupert Spira points out, you can’t see the screen if you are staring at the the movie.”

Affectionately
Janet M., a member of the Depressed Anonymous 12 Step fellowship

Wellness Steps: A personal fitness plan that builds self-esteem

BUILDING SELF-ESTEEM
1. Appraise yourself: Identify strengths and problem areas.
– Check out the Depressed Anonymous Workbook for a 12 Step self-study of one’s strengths and problem areas.
2. Try changing in small ways. Keeping it simple and manageable.
3. Emphasize your positive skills, talents and strengths. A sponsor will be most helpful in leading you to discover your hidden strengths. When we are depressed and in lockdown, it is hard to see the light. In the beginning, you will let the Da fellowship group serve as the key to unlock your potential.
4. Take what others say at face value- Free yourself from the burden of figuring out others motives.
5. Choose role models you respect. It’s possible that your presence at a DA meeting will discover others who are making the 12 Steps recovery program work for them, finding serenity an hope.
6. Stop activities you don’t like or have an aptitude for. Examples: People pleasing, isolating oneself from friends and family, catastrophic thinking, having negative thoughts about self, not trusting others.
7. Accepting yourself without judgment. Use the “SUNSPOTS” or the “Rule of Threes” to discipline oneself to use what works for you and leave the negatives behind. (See Pages 47-48 in DEPRESSED ANONYMOUS. 3rd EDITION. Depressed Anonymous Publications. 2011.)

Please read the story of Margie, a charter member of Depressed Anonymous, as she shares her story. Personal Stories section.#31. Page 131. Depressed Anonymous.
8. Talk to your friends. This is an avenue that leads you to finding who you are. The DA fellowship, which meets every day.(Check out Website for meeting information). Here in this group, your friends will share how their Journey of Hope gave them a most valuable gift–namely, a choice to work their way out of depression or to continue to live a life of misery and hopelessness.
9. Choose one particular task and do it. Just one task. One small baby step. Keep it simple. Stay in the now–one day at a time. Walk and get out into nature. Walk around the block. Use the TOOLS of Recovery. (See Homepage at depressedanon.com and click onto TOOLS of Recovery menu. You will find an array of ways to begin your own life journey, with a commitment for your own personal wellness and fitness.)
10. Take charge of your life and set goals. Make decisions. Take some risks. Reach out to others for help!

Depression thrives and grows strong in isolation where the depressed individual can spend time ruminating over past defects and self-alleged wrongdoing. The very worthlessness can grow in this darkened environment. But if the solitary confinement is to end, the depressed person has the right and the responsibility to examine the various ways to fight back the isolation, immersing oneself in a supportive and healing environment. If there is no environment where they feel safe and secure, one will have to buildup their courage and get one. You cannot think yourself out of depression. You hold the key that will unlock your prison of depression. We recommend that you start using it now.

Hugh S.


(C) Copyright. Shining a light on the dark night of the soul.: A personal experience for healing the darkness of depression. (1999) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY.
(c) Depressed Anonymous (2011) 3rd Edition. Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY. Pages 47-48.
(c) The Depressed Antonymous Workbook.(2002) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville, KY.

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